16-09-2010 very early morning.

today i wake up at 6 morning somemore is without alarm without morning call without any shit, maybe being alone is the onli way to change my life stlye. Now has been 5 days, i back to the old lonely days, yesterday i was so alone i drove from p.j to hartamas than to k.l than k.l to bukit jalil than back to p.j. I finally knew that that was no place for me, i am so close to tears out. And all so call friends yah true is just friend, so no complaint. friends just do wat friend do, they wont do over than friend limit. is been 5 days i dont call out ppl oso ppl oso hardly call me. so i know why my phone bill reach 400+ every month. very good. Becos is onli me who do all the calling but i am still a bit lucky there is someone who still will call me everyday without wanting anything from me. that my baby and my lovely mother. Starting to think maybe i really dont need friends. Maybe everytime i have to cost some money to knew that friend is it worthy for me to care or anything. My mom scold me correctly, everytime always i give when onli the time i take? I just so not use to take. But yesterday is so funny, i got list of friend but i dont know who can i call? lol maybe my phone will ring when they need me. i not going to call anyone anymore untill i feel they are trully a real friend for me to call. why i say like this becos my phone is bar for two days not even 1 call i recieve. lol that is very very funny. i think i really have to re-calculate my friend. hmm nope i think there is none. even they most best friend oso go to US d, the other one busy with his stuff and than the guys who say brother brother still in NZ. than now makes me no friend. hahaha i finally telll ppl that i got no friends. lol. ok la got to go work. have to express all negetive feeling here than i onli can work in a positive way. Thx bloggie.