Use to be lonely.

after i having my holiday i tot i will have friend to call me out. but actually not. they will call me out when they needed me . i think i the right choice that i stay alone with myself. no matter how i use to it. i have no friend no true friend. a friend is needed but they are not here. maybe not all the ppl maybe is just me having this kind of problem. but i had learn. i just need to go out myself than no one can use me. i just to keep away from group being individual maybe is a very sad thing but atleast no one can hurt me and use me. maybe all the while i dont need friend just my sub mind say need. actually i dont need. all this while i just realise this think. this is really late. all the while i just wasting my money on having test on human being. all this while is just waste my time and my extra feeling on not related ppl. last time i had all of hope on ppl that i knew but actually i dont knew them. Now beign alone doesnt look sad. being alone is just another way getting of from everything. all kind of thing that in my mind. maybe i thinking too negetive but is true. because sometime i did wat i can to help them they just dont treat me as good friend. is just a hi bye friend. i think i will have my lonely time from now onward. last time there is ppl laughing at me why he dont have friend he still come out chilling alone, correct that is funny why i am chilling alone no matter how i will still have 1 of 2 friend in my life. yah there is. is just me, myself and i. yah i have spilt personality, but at least i know wat i am doing and they know wat i am doing and they dont harm me. For wat being soft hearted? no use. i will just have to be ice cold. being not emotion is going to be my personality. there is no bond between all the ppl. there is onli me. start being emotional now is because i have regret wat i did is just a wast of my time. i think is the time i should out of this country. Being alone travel around the country is wat i dream at first. but because of my friend i choose to stay back. but now if i got the chance i will fly around the world with my cute cute baby. maybe ppl will pity that i have not friend maybe there is ppl laugh at me. sry just wan to tell u all i dont need pity i can live on my own. i not going to say anything to comfort myself because i had choose the right choice for myself.